Only a week left.
How did time pass by so quickly?

I've been wasting time. I look at that huge pile, and the thought of sitting down in front of my desk for hours, trying to lessen the load, bores me. I refuse to waste my ink and numb my butt. I think of how demoralised I always get when I am stuck at a question. I know for sure that there will be questions like those, and that puts me off greatly.

But that's not right. I'm supposed to be boring myself to death, completing my workload. I'm supposed to be wasting ink, and numbing my butt. I'm supposed to get stuck at some stupid question and I'm supposed to be demoralised by it.

But I'm not supposed to give up when that happens. I'm not supposed to just stay in that state of helplessness because in fact, I am not helpless at all. I have help. So I'm supposed to make use of that help, overcome the question that an idiot of a teacher thought a mind like mine could handle, and then move on to the next question. I'm supposed to keep doing that, till I'm done with mere homework, then I'm supposed to continue numbing my butt while I move on to extra revision.

Because I'm having my fucking 'O' Levels this year, geez.

I don't even know why I typed all that out.
As a reminder?
Maybe.


I feel like giving up, already.